Steward what is in your hand and God will bless what is in your heart

I lost my job earlier this year, just weeks before I became critically ill with an infection that almost killed me. My job search for those three months was more like wishful thinking as I could barely get out of bed most days.

My doctor cleared me about six weeks ago and the job search once again became my full-time job. I did all the things I know to do – job boards, company websites, resumes, cover letters, etc. I had a couple interviews here and there but mostly, I just had rejections rolling in.

My confidence level was getting destroyed and to say I was discouraged is an understatement. I was lying awake at night, trying to figure out what I was doing wrong. I even had a recruiter tell me my skillset, experience and overall reputation in the workforce values me more than three times the salaries I was asking for.

I won’t lie. I was starting to feel like getting a job was impossible.

You’re probably thinking of 12 different “now hiring” signs you have seen recently. Let me explain.

I have a couple of extenuating circumstances that make job-hunting a little bit like navigating a whack-a-mole game. Because of my vision impairment, it is usually not in an employer’s best interest to have me people-facing unless there’s no reading involved whatsoever. Also because of my vision, I cannot drive and rideshare everywhere I go.

Because of these things, I’ve been looking for remote positions or at least positions that pay me enough to make it worth it for me to pay $50-80 a day to rideshare to/from home, and for positions that don’t have me customer-facing.

Sounds easy, right?

Not.

But last week, I did something I should have done the day I lost my job.

I consulted with Holy Spirit.

I wish I would get better at seeking Him first instead of as a last resort.

I spent hours and hours in a two-day period with the God of the universe. I repented for trying to do it in my own strength and knowledge. I apologized for not surrendering the process to Him every single day. I made a promise to steward what was in my hand, knowing He would bless what is in my heart. I promised I would stay positive and continue to glorify Him during the process.

He promised to be faithful. To provide. To protect. To be present. To give peace.

I got up off the floor last Wednesday and I picked up my computer and I did all the same things I was doing before my heart-to-heart with God.

I went to the same websites and job boards, submitted the same resume and used the same verbiage in my cover letters.

The ONLY thing that changed was my attitude.

See? Before talking with Holy Spirit, I was operating out of a scarcity mentality. I was desperate. I was anxious. I was willing to take whatever someone would give me.

The problem is – that’s not what God created me for. He created me for abundance. He called me to confidence. He wasn’t letting me have mediocre jobs because I’m not mediocre.

I’m His.

I’m His precious daughter. More valuable than gold and silver. Created for a higher purpose. Designed to have a feast prepared for me, not beg for crumbs off the ground.

I was looking for “good enough” jobs. God said no.

What happened next is almost miraculous, friends.

The calls and emails FLOODED in. Call after call after call. I scheduled so many interviews, I had to start putting them on my calendar because I was worried I would forget one.

EVERY single assessment I completed turned into a phone screening. Every single phone interview so far has turned into an in-person interview. Interviewers are practically chomping to get me in the door because they are so excited about what I have to offer their companies.

I don’t tell you that to sound arrogant. I really don’t. I promise you I am not doing a single thing differently than I was the week before when all I was getting was rejection emails. I tell you this because it proves there is power in our words.

Proverbs 18:21 tells us the power of life and death is in our words. Our tongue is like a sword in the spiritual realm.

The only thing I am doing differently in my job search is speaking life into my days full of applications and interviews. I’m speaking gratitude, belief and positivity over each moment instead of passively or negatively hitting “submit” with a feeling of defeat and desperation.

Because of my shift in mentality, I am actually applying to jobs beyond what I feel qualified for and getting interviews. When we see our value the way God sees us, things begin to shift.

I have so many interviews, I feel pretty confident I will have options.

Some of my options require me to move across town (again) and I’m at peace with it.

Why?

Because God is faithful.

Can I tell you something I am specifically grateful for today?

Of course I can. It’s my blog.

Since I was in college, my greatest financial goal has been to have SEVEN streams of income. One full time gig and six part-time side hustles that actively or passively generate income or are results of my ultimate dream of writing/speaking/influencing others for the sake of the kingdom of God.

I want this so I can live in abundance financially. I want to be more generous and I want to be in such a financially secure place that losing my full-time job would be okay.

I don’t have a full-time job that pays the bills and gives me benefits yet, but I have added FIVE streams of income in the last two weeks. FIVE.

How?

I was faithful with what God gave me. I responded to emails that sounded sketchy, I picked up the phone when I wasn’t so sure about the gig, I did my research, and I opened my mind to things I felt under-qualified for.

I have never been more assured that God knows EXACTLY what He’s doing as I do today.

Maybe you aren’t looking for a job today, but I bet you’re waiting on God for something.

A spouse?

To be pregnant?

Your dream to replace your 9-5?

Healing?

A promotion?

Whatever it is, I challenge you to start speaking words of life and victory over your situation. Begin thanking God for what He is already doing on your behalf.

I almost guarantee you that as your mentality shifts, your situation will too. I can’t say for sure your miracle will come in a day or a week or a month or even a year. But what I do know is that as you steward what God has put in your hand with faith, He will be faithful to give you what is in your heart.

One of the best books I have ever read on mentality is: Poverty, Riches and Wealth: Moving from a Life of Lack into True Kingdom Abundance by Kris Vallotton. Head over to Amazon. You won’t be disappointed.

Want to know what happens when my job search? Make sure you are following me on Instagram (here’s my account) because that’s where I’ll share which position I end up choosing and what happens next.

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